Today is my grad cruise. it started off ok, i was very anxious. the night was bitterly cold and i can feel my fingers freezing, still i patiently waited. finally we got on the bus to the cruiseship. it was a bit dissapointing that we just went around in circles but i didnt expect much more anyway.
all in all it was fun but I feel so empty inside. when i return home, all i see is how i have to do hw for day after day. is a life like that worth living? what is the drive for me to succeed? how can i succeed without any motavation at all. i see a dark path off a broken cliff. soon i will reach that end and ill fall in to the eternal abyss. i wonder what is there to save me